Jasper,
For 11 years you have been my constant companion. At the wonderful age of 15 years you have passed on to your next life. You are the one that called it "Transformation". You are right on with that word. It is a wonderful transformation that occurs at the death of a body. So much life is given when it seems one is taken. You have crossed the bridge with such confidence and grace.
You have taught me about some of the greatest gifts in life. You taught me about perserverance, love, hope, acceptance, honor, and now death.
You showed me how to stick with it against all odds when you stayed by Murphy's side after his amputation.
You loved me unconditionally when I was going through a breakup or death of another animal.
You gave me hope when I felt like all was lost. I was your ray of hope when I found you in the rescue and knew I was going to bring you home.
You showed me how to graciously find acceptance in all things.
You showed me about honor when things started to become difficult for you. I was able to honor your requests to die at home in peace. I was able to let go of my selfishness and want to keep you longer. I honor our time together and what it means to me. I honored your final wishes of having dignity.
You showed me that death is a natural and inevitable part of life. Dying can be a beautiful process if we only look beyond the facade of death. Death is only a means to journey to a new world and to give rise to new life. You allowed me to find peace and love in your transformation and I am forever greatful. I was able to find happiness after your transformation from the peace in knowing I had done everything I could for you and knowing your and my time was perfect together.
You tell me to live life joyously and with no regrets. I will.
You tell me to find peace in the watcher. I will.
You tell me you will always be my pillar of support. Thank you.
And yes, I will cry. I am and probably will again.
Thank you for sharing this part of your journey with me. It has been blessed to live with you. The memories I have flood my mind. You putting the dogs in their place by nipping their noses.... You thumping your little behind when I am trying to sleep.... Thank you for scratching me when I have been holding you too long and now you have to pee.... You running like a mad man in the hallway.... Trips to the grocery store with Chris (what were we thinking?! :) )... Swimming in the pool.... running in the kitchen..... Your cuteness when you sprawled out in your bed.....Shawn nicknaming you "Jazzy J" like you were a bad ass rapper or something (he loves you and misses you too).....
Thank you for being my friend and my little buddha bunny. I know we will chat again.
Love,
Kendra
