Life is a journey. Simple. Lovely. Endless. Connected.
Life is exactly what we make it whether we know it or not. We attract people, places, events, animals into our lives when we need to in order to learn, grow, and expand our consciousness and our connection to Source.
We are all connected and we are all everything. This is a big concept and it is becoming a bigger part of my life every day. When we can see the world within us we can have compassion for the world we experience in and around us. We begin to see that we are not just a individual part in this experience on Earth but rather an integral part of the whole. Every single being (animal, plant, mineral, or object) on Earth, great and small, play a role in this experience that impacts all of us.
My life was recently greatly impacted by a special little girl. Her name was Purdy. She was a 3 week old kitten that was in rough shape. She was skin and bones, starving, cold, and weak. I brought her home in an effort to support her tiny little body to have life. She was only with us for 3 days but those days were so amazing.
First, she had a decision to make. To stay or to go. It was completely her decision to live this life or move on to the next. I was just her life support and catalyst for change. I gave her the sacred space, time, unconditional love, and physical support she needed to make her decision. I was not in control. No one is in control of things like this. We are only in control of how we feel and how we respond.
Second, she showed me how to be soft, loving, gentle, and get in touch with my femininity to support her. I struggle with finding softness in my world. I have a history of getting rough when things get tough. It has been such a journey to embrace that softness within me and then to be able to offer it to others. I try every day to keep that softness in my heart and in my hands. I had to stay soft with Purdy, she was too fragile to be anything but soft, loving, and gentle with.
Third, she gave us hope and purpose. The hope for life. The hope for possibilities to what is to come. With or without her here things would shift just having been a part of her little life for that brief time. She brought out the nurturing and playful side of Chuck, our cat. She gave him something to look for. Someone to care for, show the ropes too, get in trouble with, and imagine all the possibilities with. Chuck and I will work together on a journey that helps support his purpose in this life.
Fourth, she showed us how precious life is. Cherish every single moment. Live every single moment and love like you never have in every single moment. You never know when things will change. Be so incredibly grateful for everything. When she left this life I cried for awhile. I cried for so many things. Not for the 'if onlys' or the 'i miss her' but for the peace she is in now, the choices that were made, the missing of the physical-ness of her presence. She may not physically be here but she is here somewhere out there.
Fifth, she showed me that it isn't always about us. I know that I feel everything I come across has the potential to teach me and help me grow in some way. There are times where we are just along for the ride for someone or something else. We are a part in their story. The actions we take and the words we speak will inevitably be a catalyst for them for change. We think we could have done something different, played the 'what if' game, or said something different but we did and said exactly the things that were supposed to be and they made the choice.
I am so incredibly blessed to have been a part of her life and allowed her the love and acceptance to make the choice she was to make. I am so grateful for the ability to hear and sense other's needs around me and allow myself to shift in order to support them on their journey. The more I listen the more I am in love with the magic and awe of the unspoken.
Her burial was so lovely. Shawn created a wonderful resting ground beneath our Deborah Maple in the back yard that has a motherly nurturing feel to me. The light shines on this spot at the end of the day. Her tiny body was laid to rest amoung a few hand picked feathers so that she may stay light and fly to great heights on her journey, Amethyst to connect with her higher self's needs and Source and assist with decision making, Green Aventurine to provide comfort, healing, and harmony, and Red Jasper as it is a nurturing stone that brings tranquility and wholeness, and a bit of Sage to create sacred space in her resting place. Shawn ever so gently and with great care covered her.
I feel like I have expanded so much in this experience. I feel more connected with those around me and connected to my authentic me. This was not a loss on any account. Just great love and feeling blessed to have been a part of her life. She is on a journey just like the rest of us.
