After a few weeks off from writing I am ready to get back onto the page. I really needed time to let my body process all the changes that were occurring. I found that my spirit, body, emotions, and mind were all in slightly different places. I needed to get them all back to the same page. This feels like a new experience, like something I have never gone through, in this life or in past lives. I have sought guidance from blessed friends, spirits, and of course the animals.
I had struggled to meditate a few days ago because body and spirit were out of sync but I realized after the fact that a few messages came to me and I just wasn't aware. In those quiet moments between struggling to ground and relax my breath into my whole being I felt my energetic body expand. I could feel a distance away from me the limits of my energy. I felt it bump into other beings too. I felt and saw the aura of the horses, the dogs, and most remarkably the earth. I felt my aura extend down below my feet and connect with hers. I felt her well up and expand her aura so that I could feel it more readily. It is expansive, beautiful, and absolutely awe-inspiring. To think that I am just one being here on Earth that is so much a part of her energy and everyone else. You can't be here on Earth without your energy enmeshing with the energy of the Earth, whether you are aware that it happens or not. What if the trees were really extensions of her so that we may more readily get to know her? What if the grass were like our arm hair that senses the atmosphere around it and detects minute changes in energy and provide feedback? The roots of trees go deep within the Earth, it is almost unimaginable the extent of their unseen depth. They are intimately connected with the Earth. What if skyscrapers, though erected by humans, are just towers from where she can receive more energy, feedback, and connect with us? Like a cell phone tower that moves our unseen calls at lightning speed across time and space to connect us.
Today as I sat, I softened the mental chatter. I don't force, that gives me headaches. I just quietly remind myself to soften and suspend conscious thought for a period of time. Each time a thought creeps back in I just soften and begin again. I wanted to just cleanse and purge during this meditation. I scanned my being for areas of blocks and allowed the energy to just dissipate them as needed. I opened my heart to the messages that were available and just allowed the healing energy to just move through me, around me, and uplift and re-balance me. I could feel the energy get stuck in my solar plexus. I began to yawn and yawn and yawn. I allowed my body to move and undulate as it felt needed to process through the blockage. I let the sunshine wash over me and recharge me. Afterwards I felt refreshed and renewed.
Work is minimal this week, scheduling can make it a bit wonky in how things end up. I decided to allow myself this time to rejuvenate my being. It is the new start of a quarter and I just couldn't make ends meet to continue with T'ai Chi this quarter. I was nervous to tell my instructor but felt relieved once I had. I know change is good and there is a reason I won't be there for this set of corrections classes.
There have been many shifts for me lately. Lots of good changes under way. I have been receiving many messages and it is time to start listening a bit more closely. In order for me to really fine tune my receiver I am starting to "put myself out there", as Beth would say, and begin communicating with animals so that I can get validation and feedback. This will help me fine tune my skills and support me as I move in the direction of Messenger. I don't know everything about this journey but that is half the fun. It is exciting to see where it will take me while I am working in each moment.
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