After spending some quality time with my herd, yet again, they reminded me that 'I am enough'. I don't need to impress anyone. I don't need to take on more than I can handle just to prove I can do it. I don't need to save every life in this world. I don't need to be anyone other than me. Who would I be if I weren't me anyways?
The decision to take on a new horse had left me very reflective and spending time with my herd always helps to clear things up. They let me see that I am perfect in just who I am. I am perfect with the family- four legged, two legged, and feathered. They all accept me for who I am. I don't need to pretend to be something I am not. I enjoy helping animals and providing the best I can for them. It is challenging to see a situation from other perspectives. Just because I have chosen to not take on this horse doesn't mean I am a failure, that I don't care, or that his life is doomed. I want what is best for him. More importantly I need to trust my intuition, and create and maintain healthy boundaries.
In knowing that I am enough I need to set healthy boundaries. I acknowledge the need to help others but also when to respect my needs in life. If I am constantly giving of myself while not respecting my own boundaries what does that leave me with? I want to be 100% for every being that I give to and I can't do that if I have over stepped my boundaries. Boundaries allow us to stay safe and evaluate the unknown from a place where we are confident and secure. As we grow we expand those boundaries, one step at a time. Busting blindly through boundaries can set us up for failure if we aren't ready for what is on the other side. Slowly allowing our boundaries to ebb and flow as necessary to allow us to grow in a safe space is rewarding and comfortable.
What does it mean 'to be enough'? To me it means that I am perfect in this moment, exactly where I am right now. It means I don't need anything else externally to feel good about myself, or to change my belief in myself to help others and make a positive difference. I am content with right where I am and I will get where ever I am going when ever I get there.
From my horses when I asked them if we should add another horse to the herd -"Aren't we enough?" Which got me thinking....Well.... yes, they are enough. I have said before there is very little that my horses can't help me learn when the time arrives for me to learn. They are diverse in their beings and abilities to communicate with me. If we are always looking for something more for where we are, are we ever truly satisfied with where we are? Probably not. Could I learn something new from a new horse? Absolutely. We can always learn. But right now, I am content with my herd and confident in our relationships that we have lots of learning yet to do. I am comfortable knowing that the lessons I am to learn will come to me when I and they(the lessons) are ready. For now, I just am...whatever that may be... and I am enough.
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