Today is day two of the Equi-Heart pledge. On my drive to the barn I found myself wondering what I might discover today. As I crossed the Fox River, only a few blocks from my home, I look out up river...and I am blessed with the presence of the Bald Eagle. They are nesting here in town and few people have seen them this winter. I however have been blessed with their presence about 5 times now. Each time I visit with them I am in awe of their beauty, power, grace, and magnificent being. I knew then that today was about being the watcher and seeing the bigger picture in life. I also become aware of how relaxed I am today. The tension in my shoulders and neck seems to have melted away. The muscles in my face and jaw are soft and supple. There are no worries and nothing to do execpt be here and now.
The horses are still in the lean-to sleepily looking at me as I pull in. They begin their morning stretches and wake up more fully at the idea of food coming. I wake up every morning and look forward to my quiet time with the horses as they munch contentedly on their breakfast and I pick up poop. Glorious I know but it is my time to just be with them and care for them. I have had brilliant moments of clarity while picking up poop, it is like a moving meditation for me. Sometimes they follow me around, sometimes they sniff the poop in the wheel barrow, and sometimes they just eat. We all are just together for this time. Today I noticed how easy it was to lift the pitch fork. My shoulders relaxed, at ease and without worry.
This morning I began my day with Tai Chi. It was one of the more liberating practice sessions I have had. It was in all my glory in front of the mirror. Recently, I have had my awareness shift to the tension in my shoulders and how it radiates in my body. I have been blessed with this insight following the formation of a new friendship. It is through this friendship that I see myself in a different light. I want to teach and share my passion with the world and to do that I need to have faith and trust in myself. I need to be comfortable in my own skin and confident about I am. He is helping me with this and has no idea how profoundly he has impacted my life in such a short time. He possess the qualities that I struggle with myself and through spending time with him and I am starting to emanate those qualities as well. I am letting go of expectations that I have about what others expect of me. I am letting of trying to be perfect but rather be perfect in just who I am in each moment. He intimidates me and I appreciate him for it. Every time I get nervous around him or try to do the form better I learn more about myself and the attachments I hold. And today, I am soft and relaxed. No hurries or worries. And I feel warm today. With each beat of my heart I can feel the blood course through my veins in my whole body. I feel alive and present. I am reminded frequently of his comment to me one day at Tai Chi that he saw me giggling during one of the Chi Gongs. To giggle is freedom and contentment, to be able to laugh at yourself and lighten up. Thank you Records for that reminder!
It is with this new found awareness of true softness and relaxation that I interacted with the horses today. They responded lightly to my requests and shared in this quiet relaxation. It is wonderful to enjoy the day and see the world from above as an Eagle would see it, with no judgements or attachments....just being. I am reminded that the the Eagle provides great clarity and provides a fresh look on any given situation. They remind us to be in touch with our inner child, to know when and how to speak and to seize opportunities that arise. "They bring a new powerful dimension to life and heightened resposibility for your spiritual growth- through this we can learn to move between the worlds, touch all life with healing and become the mediator and the bearer of new creative force within the world." Animal Speak by Ted Andrews.
Though not completely a day of intentional connection with the horses I was gifted by the Eagle and my friend to gain insight on myself to change the interactions with my horses and be grateful for the different vantage point in which to see my world.
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